Entry #1: No one has it Figured out

From a very young age I remember hearing that I needed to “figure it all out.” Figure what out? Life? If that is the case, well… shit.

In high school, while working on college application, teachers would tell us we needed to figure out what career path we wanted to take in order to find a fitting school for us. When they would say that I remember thinking, “What the hell do you mean? I am literally 17 I don’t even know what I want for dinner when I get home, let alone an entire career path.” From such a young age that type of mentality, of needing to know the next steps is, is so engrained and for what reason?

As I am getting older I realize that was literally a bunch of bullshit because no one has it figured out! No one knows what they’re doing, we’re just winging it pretending like we have our lives put together. There are people on instagram showing off their expensive clothing, fancy vacations, nothing but smiles and filters. When in reality they could be suffering with depression or debt, but decide put on this facade to show people that they have “it all figured out.”

There is so much pressure put on to us from a very young age that the present moment is ripped away and the worries of the future are constantly rolling in. That is what life on earth has become for humans. It is sad to see. We worry too much what others think and say about us. We constantly compare our lives to others because someone is seen as more successful or their lives seem put together, while yours may seem to be falling apart. But in reality they think the same thing as you do.

Right now I am currently battling with this idea of “figuring it out.” I don’t know my next step or have a solid idea of where I want to be in life and where I wanna go. But I do know that it is somewhere grand and I will be changing the world in a positive way. My secret to not letting this idea get the best of me is being where my feet are (I constantly tell myself this). And it helps, a lot. There are days where sometimes this collective conscious mind takes over and I worry too forward into the future, but I find away to come back to my feet.

Now look at your life. Do you have food on the table? A roof over your head? A bed to sleep in? Someone to stay goodnight to? Hell are you able to read what is on the screen?? Well if you answered yes to any of these question, let me tell you that you have it good and there is nothing to “figure out” except for what you are doing in this very moment. Because without this very moment there is no life to “figure out” there is nothing to figure out except to just be here where your to feet are and take life as it comes to you. Figuring it all out is a bunch of bullshit. I don’t even know what I am doing with writing a blog. I don’t think I am qualified and I am shit with grammar, but here I am doing the damn thing. Figuring nothing out and just running with it.